Roadway in The Wilderness...

2008...

Another year has passed...

I do not remember what has happened in the last one year...Oh yeah, some vague memories jolted my brain whenever I heard people were talking about certain things, but if you asked me straight...I might stare blankly at you and say...I don't recall...

But hey...magically...as I am struggling to pour out my thoughts here...I suddenly recall a few things that have happened in my life...

And I am grateful...for them...

Somehow, I have learned a lot about being grateful over simple things...like freezing in my apartment although the heater is on full blast...being hungry and forced to scrape for food cause there are no restaurants around my apartment...listening on my mom's rants over the phone...being together with friends who never fill the void of my heart...etc...

By the way, I just had a gathering with about 30 people and we had a "game" of writing "good things" about someone. And so most people (if not all) wrote that I look "mature"....Not sure if that was a compliment or they just couldn't find a better word for "old"....

Wilderness...that's how I look at my surroundings...Everything is so uncertain and I have no clear idea where I would be...

I do not even know what I really want...

I am even afraid to want...

But finally, I muster up some left over courage...and list my wishes for 2008...

May the Master open my eyes...to see a Roadway...in The Wilderness...

I will not, I will not, I will not leave you nor forsake you...